Murmuring Heart

Nurses aren't liking the paleness of my skin

Asking if they can notify my kin

Don't bother, don't wanna stir up any trouble

I'll cause enough when they're digging through my rubble

Silence lifts my fears out of the holes I've dug

My murmuring heart is crying out for a hug

For years they kept me benched on the lines

I happily stayed inside and pulled the blinds

My brokenness rhymed with my social health

All too poetic to fight my desire for stealth

And all the better if the world sees me as smug

But my murmuring heart keeps crying for a hug

No memories to ponder as treasure

Only future moments of hopeful pleasure

Serenity washes over the blinking lights

Find out soon if I'll have many more fights

Feeling content to relax my best and shrug

Though my murmuring heart yearns for a hug

Shocked to hear the doctor's diagnosis

Perfectly fine, maybe just a problem of neurosis

The story that's been told over and over through my time

No truth in it, just a deceitful coat of grime

My life's work will now have to be to debug

As my murmuring heart still cries for a hug